Self-Discovery: My Personal Passion Discovery Story
The previous post about having multiple passions prompted me to share my personal story on how I found my passion(s) in life because I thought it might help you gain some insight, garner innovative ideas, or do both to help you in your journey toward discovering your passion(s) as well. If you want to read the previous post, Self-Discovery: Multiple Passions, click here. In this post, I will attempt to illustrate my K-12 years as well as after high school to show how a passion, or passions, can materialize.
To begin, almost everything fascinates you when you are a child, so you want to be almost anything (and everything) such as a lawyer, a doctor, a secretary, a veterinarian, an astronaut, a cosmetologist, a cashier, and even a mermaid or superhero! However, as you grow older, your interests begin to narrow more and more.
This might sound a little cliché; but, if I could redo my childhood, one aspect I would change is the how frequently I watched television. Nevertheless, I did consume quite a significant amount, and two channels I was very fond of watching after school (at this time in my life) were HGTV and the Food Network channel, especially at the age of eight and nine. As a result, the first “passion” I acquired was interior designing. I was constantly re-designing rooms in my head and wanted to create homemade decorations and organization ideas.
The second “passion” I acquired almost simultaneously was cooking. However, I did not want to be just any chef in any restaurant; I wanted to have my very own cooking show just like those I continuously watched on the Food Network channel.
Surprisingly, these goals stuck for about three or four years. However, one or two years into still wanting to achieve these goals of cooking and interior designing I added another one. At the age of ten, I wanted to become an actress. My main attraction for becoming an actress was the fame and money, but I also assumed I would be able to keep the clothes that was made for my part, or character. So, of course, I wanted to acquire roles where I could obtain modern fashionable dresses, shirts, shoes, and so on. So, beginning at ten years of age, my career goals were to become an interior designer, a chef with my own cooking show on the Food Network, and an actress. I’m not sure how I planned on balancing these three goals, but they were my goals, nonetheless!
By the ages twelve to thirteen, I decided against acting, and my enthusiasm for interior designing and cooking had waned. As I was approaching thirteen, I had a song rolling in my head for a while and a light bulb went off. I began growing enthusiasm for writing songs, lyrics more specifically. I had written the lyrics for my first “song” at the age of eleven, but my passion gained momentum at thirteen, and I wrote approximately forty songs, or more, from ages thirteen to fourteen. At this point in my life, I had attended a few different schools, and this left me feeling scared, rejected, and other negative emotions. So, writing these lyrics became an outlet for me to express myself. I continued writing lyrics throughout high school and still do to this day when I have time.
During my teen years, as I was writing these lyrics, I casually assumed I would jump into a pile of riches or, at least, I did not feel pressured by striving to obtain a job as I felt I would be comfortable after high school. I think I created a world in my head where I would rise in fortune from my lyrics, which could have been possible, but I did not have the tools nor knowledge to do anything with this passion of mine.
As graduation kept moving closer and closer into my life and my lyrics were not even close to being published on a record, I was feeling a little scared and pressured to choose something else. For some reason, I always gravitated toward something that I was, at least, somewhat interested. I never believed in settling for something that I truly did not enjoy.
During high school, at the age of fourteen, I found these “beauty gurus” who made videos on tutorials and hauls on clothes, makeup, hair products, and so on. No one taught me how to apply makeup or anything about fashion, so I saw these people as my teachers, essentially. Consequently, the constant mental consumption of these videos prompted me to go in the direction of fashion and beauty. So, throughout high school, I gravitated toward creative, artsy, and fashion related electives.
My ultimate goal was to become a designer; but, by age seventeen, I was not even close to doing this. So, until I could reach this goal, I decided to try to get a job in a clothing store to attempt climbing the career latter and eventually become a buyer for a company. After I would obtain enough income, I would start my own clothing store then create and sell designs I created myself. At seventeen and eighteen, this was my ultimate (career) plan.
After graduation, I knew I had plan, but I also knew this plan would take a while to complete. But, after many unforeseen and unexpected events, my life completely changed—for the better. Originally, this was my career plan because I did not plan on going to school and felt it was my passion. However, well after high school and after some debate, I searched and, ultimately, applied to a college, with hesitation.
Like most people, I wanted a job instead because I wanted an income and not accumulating debt. However, I discovered shortly after that this was one of the best decisions I ever made. I was in love with absorbing all this (new) knowledge and, after a few classes, I discovered the field of Humanities. After this discovery, I had planned on becoming a Humanities because I loved it so much and still do. However, a few courses later, I found Cultural Anthropology. After reading the course description, I signed up for the class and immediately fell in love with all of its content. Cultural Anthropology seemed to cover some ancient as well as modern cultures as well, so I, ultimately, decided to teach Cultural Anthropology courses. Right after Cultural Anthropology, I looked into the course description of Sociology and also found it intriguing and decided to double major in Cultural Anthropology and Sociology.
As I mentioned previously, college was the best thing I could have done for me and my future because it opened up opportunities and doors I probably would not have discovered otherwise. I would have lived a life attempting to own a clothing store and, if this had not come to fruition, it would have been a devastating turning point in my life. But, because I was introduced to academia, it opened other options I would not have discovered otherwise, and I would not be interested in the majors I have chosen nor would I have thought to become a college professor. In fact, in my world, none of this would exist by the mere fact I was completely unaware of all of this.
Essentially, in the beginning, I felt the options were endless and had three career goals—interior designer, a cook with my own cooking show, and an actress. However, after switching schools a few times during my teen years, I grew a strong desire to write my thoughts down through lyrics. But, as I found myself coming to a “dead end,” I felt pressured to choose something more “realistic” and chose to climb the career latter through a clothing company to become a buyer then, ultimately, own my own business and start my own clothing line. However, I began to feel this was also out of reach and maybe not even attainable. However, well after high school, my life changed drastically (for the better), and I began attending college and through taking numerous courses found two fields that peaked my interest to include Cultural Anthropology and Sociology, which would not have happened if I had not taken the academia route. I would also not be considering becoming a professor if I had not taken this route. As I said before, going to college was the best move I ever made. Why? To list a reason other than I garner and absorb a vast amount of knowledge, I found a passion and a purpose to my passion through academia and through my academia experiences.
I hope you found this helpful and insightful! I would love to read your story on how you found your passion in the comments below! And, if you have any questions, please feel free to ask those too!